My feelings deceive to me---thinks

Today it raises to me, nervous since I sent a series of postal to a person who does not know important how is for me, in the work reviews my mail, as serious my surprise when seeing that tapeworm a mail of this person, cheers to me, I had a strange sensation (always happens to me the same with her). I must confess that for that reason it moves away me of her during a long time and I did not give everything by her when I had to do it, but of which if I regret it is of not being to its side when I need which supported it.

This morning when reviews the mail was not what hoped, was fried, sharp and distant. I felt very badly, since I think that besides to lose the opportunity to have tried to be with a wonderful woman when it was the time I feel that I began to lose a great friend and I did not realize before and that me I cannot pardon. I do not deny step a time in which I said, I want to be with her, but she loved she to be with me, it and no longer is not found out it, by that stupid fear is counting this history now and turned four years with my present pair, but... to that cost, I feel that wide-awake of a lethargy, an unreal dream and I have been for four years with my girlfriend so that she this happy one, but this is not love is custom and but the strange thing of everything is that by a simple mail of a special person I realized.

It is moment for repairing my life and for trying to be happy although he is single.